failed.
i've never failed in any major exams.
today's paper might be the first.
went through hundreds of tutorial questions, flipped through thousands of printed handouts in the last 2 days..
the moment i saw the 5 unfamiliar short questions on the exam sheet, i nearly died.
why only 5 questions?!
i know i'd have to repeat the module given RMIT's regulations. they don't take into account project grades when you fail the exam, meaning if you fail the exam, even if you got distinctions for your projects, you'd still fail.
i don't know what to do now. halfway through the paper i was already wondering if i should start looking for a perm job. i really hate to repeat something i've done before.
i know i know i shouldn't have studied last min..but it's all too late.
the worst thing is, results are gonna be out on the 7th dec.
3 days before my bday.
why is everything going out of place now? nicole @
Sunday, October 23, 2005
yawnzz.
another lazy sunday afternoon..
slept at 7am and woke up about an hour ago. wanted to hit the books last nite but at 3.10am, the itchy fingers of my sis reached for the remote control and channel 55 was repeating Full House (Korean drama feat Song Hae Gyo and Rain)! I missed the front part when it was first broadcasted earlier!
SCV really has got absurd schedules. The first broadcast was ended only at 1am and 2 hours later, it's repeated again?!
anyway i couldn't resist it! we were glued to the sofa until the show finally ended at 5+. lol.
then me and sis started chatting until 7 when mommy woke up to get ready for her marketing. thought she'd nag at me for staying up late again but she didn't. i guess she's used to seeing me go to bed when she wakes up. lol.
these days i've been stocking up on my sleep cos i know i'm gonna lose them soon.
just 2 more days to my first paper! nicole @
Saturday, October 22, 2005
weeping saturday nite.
i have no idea why i'm feeling so frustrated but i'm glad my tears finally gave way. in moments when you have nothing to depend on, tears are your best friend. :) nicole @
Wednesday, October 19, 2005
hunger pangs..
at 3.08am, I'm seriously craving for..
1. DURIANS!
my secret wish is to strike lottery/find a rich husband and live in a bungalow where i can grow my own durian trees in our backyard!
2. BAK GWA!
note to my jie: if you're reading this, pls buy some lin zhi yuan on your way back today! i love you! lol.
3. DONUTS!
esp. Bangkok's dunkin' donuts!
*drools*
*drools* nicole @
Tuesday, October 18, 2005
angry pms girl.
i get very irritated at the slightest thing and i'd start shooting without consulting my brains. i think i might have unintensionally upset some others in the process. if you think you're a victim and happen to be reading this, sorry k? it's the time of the month lah, don't take it to heart!
besides my temper, i notice a few other things that happens without fail during this "critical" period:
- i spend even more compulsively (like i say i don't use my brains).
- once i eat, i can't stop. i will never feel full, even if i do, the feeling disappears after 3min, and then i'll start gorging myself again..
- i become uber clumsy. i will have problems balancing myself on the train and sometimes even when i'm walking i'll trip (no falls yet, fortunately) & just yesterday, i accidentally dipped my finger into a brand new pot of lipcolor while trying to screw the cover back!! now it has a ugly dent on it. argh!)
too lazy to retake the blur pic :P btw this lip stuff is great! :D
- another spastic incident but i'm not sure if i can associate it to pms or not..
i was flossing my teeth the other day when i felt something hard. i thought it was a huge piece of meat (couldn't see as it was a rear tooth), so i flossed harder and faster (feeling excited lol). when it finally break loose, i realise it was actually a part of my tooth, instead of that perceived "huge piece of stuck meat". i actually broke my tooth while flossing! how suay is that! !@#$%^&*
now it hurts whenever i eat something sweet or cold. bah. -_-" nicole @
Friday, October 14, 2005
my 1st paypal transaction!
Woot! I bought an Anna Sui mirror for a lady in the states and she paid me via paypal.
It's really nice to receive a "You've got cash!" email! LOL. I heard Paypal exchange rates are pretty low so I won't be withdrawing the money. It'll be kept as my future shopping expense!
*jumps for joy*
Yes, nothing beats retail theraphy. I'm a hopeless (online) shopaholic. :P
Pls study study study study study.. nicole @
Sunday, October 09, 2005
if only i had 48 hours in a day..
and a more intelligent brain to juggle both relationship and school..
i'd probably be a better person/gf.
unfortunately i don't.
i'm sorry to be such a huge disappointment. nicole @
neverending misunderstandings.
Why? After 2 years?
"I admit I sounded tired that day, but that doesn't mean that because of my deadbeat tone, you should stopped calling me." -- you still do not understand.
"I can totally understand how disappointed u felt as I have gone through similar incidents before." -- what did i do? weren't all my sats/most of our common free time spent with you?
"Do you remember the incident in Taka? Do you think u have changed?" -- the taka incident was another problem/matter altogether. and yes, i think i changed - for the better.
"I was concern; in fact, I had asked your friend how your work in Erdinger was, but because I wanted to act apathy, I had to hide my feelings." -- why my friend again? why not me? why have to hide feelings? till now i still cannot understand why/accept the fact that you had to test me. haven't i been like that ever since we were together?
"I did ask you about your work, but you keep telling me nothing instead" -- once again, i hate sms. it would have been different if you called.
I spent my weekend thinking through the relationship. Really missed those splendid moments..
And I begin to wonder why we seem to be able to live with each other's differences until now..or was it a wrong move to hold on to the relationship quarrels after quarrels? nicole @
Friday, October 07, 2005
reply to the last relationship test.
I'm really appalled that we had to resort to this "last relationship test".
Firstly, I would like to clarify that YES, I do visit your blog. Not everyday, but at least the last time was on 5th Oct, before my last entry. Your last entry (as dated 26 Sept) was not there. So apparently, your last entry was published after 5th Oct, and not on 26 Sept, so do not accuse me of not reading your blog.
Here's everything you might wish to know:
Yes I take very long to reply your smses, but I can assure you it's not just yours. Sometimes I'm really tired to the point when I can forget to bring my phone out or I'll just leave it in my bag the whole day. I admit that sometimes I see your good morning messages and never reply, but it was never intentional. At times it was due to my laziness, at times those messages just seem like a monotonous routine everyday, I thought you'd be able to "guess" my replies. I thought you understood me well enough to know that I didn't like to sms, thus no replies from me, but I was wrong. I believe all has been said in the smses I sent you yesterday.
Nevertheless, I do still admit that it's my fault for not replying your smses. Yes, despite my busy and tired schedule, you're amazed that I still manage to find time for online shopping. But what you failed to find out is that I'm almost always online after school as I know you're sometimes able to msn during work and you'd be online too after work. I thought we could communicate via msn, so I thought I could just do without the sms.
'Since I was lazy to sms, why won't I call?' you asked. I tried calling a few times, but each time, either you were busy or you sounded really tired, so it was natural that I stopped. I remember calling you sometime ago, crying. In the past, you would have no problem "detecting" that I was crying, but that night, you just didn't realize. When I told you about my problems, all I received was your deadbeat tone, so I figured I shouldn't continue to bother you.
Msn didn't seem to be appropriate for us as well, your replies were often slow; I didn't really had the chance to find out what you were doing. So blogging was used as my last resort, hoping you'd be able to see what i've typed.
Regarding your birthday, I'm really sorry. It's my fault for not being able to be the first to wish you. I was really glad when you told me your buddies asked you out because I know there was no way I can finish my project on time to pass you the cake personally. Then the week was really tough, I had to juggle 2 project deadlines. I admitted I had forgotten about the KTV thing, and when Dione asked me to join her at Momo, I merely took it as an offer to unwind myself. Moreover, I asked you along, I didn't think of leaving you behind at all. I know it's my fault for letting the important KTV session slip my mind, but it's really due to the stress that I faced then. If you had gently reminded me about the KTV session, I would have forgone the Momo invite without hesitation and went to KTV with you. Whatever it is, I can understand how disappointed you felt and I'm really sorry.
The next few days I was confirmed by Erdinger. I specially requested to Angeline that I want to keep the Saturday for you, because this time round I really wanted to make it up to you and bring you to the KTV session as promised. But on Friday night after work, you told me you had to work on Sat and you were going to a friend's chalet after that. I don't know if you can imagine but I was really disappointed. My plans failed again. That few days I could really sense your absence, I didn't receive the usual messages, didn't receive your offers to pick me up after work like what you used to do. I thought you were busy, so I didn't want to disturb you, even when I wish you were with me when I met a terrible customer. I was always on the lookout for you, hoping to see you smiling at me at a corner waiting for me to end work. I wasn't angry at all, I know you had your reasons for not doing the same.
I don't think posting all these would make any difference anyway.
I apologize for not being able to live up to your expectations and any form of hurt i've caused unintensionally during the quarrel. It's really difficult to maintain a relationship when a couple cannot even compromise on the form of communication used. Funny but true.
Lastly, you may feel that I don't seem to show care and concern as much as you want me to, but I do, just that it might not be obvious because I prefer to keep them to myself. That's me. :) nicole @
Wednesday, October 05, 2005
did he ever realise that..
- i hate to sms
- i prefer to be taken care of rather than being reminded to take care of myself.. nicole @
truly singaporean blog!
I might be late to the party but i just happened to chance upon Rockson's blog.
His tian xia wu di Singlish is so entertaining! no one can fight sia! lol.
Check him out! nicole @
Monday, October 03, 2005
erdinger girl
was busy working at raffles city's int'l wine and beer fair for erdinger for the past few days. though tiring, it was real fun sampling different wines and beers and great working with angie and simin!
while i met many nice peeps and interesting customers, i had my fair share dealing with disgusting uncles and cheapos who bargain for the freebies shamelessly. -_-
nevertheless, i'd say it was great experience! :D
photo deliberately made small to protect angeline..i know she hates the uniform! lol. nicole @
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