::Be my butterfly:: by Nicole

bye blogspot!

2007-02-24T11:45:00.000-08:00

been mia for so long..sorry guys!

switched on my blogging mood once again!

but i've decided to move to LJ instead.

http://nicolelah.livejournal.com

See you there!
comments are most welcomed! (over there of cos!)

career test

2006-05-25T01:14:00.000-07:00

Career Inventory Test Results

Extroversion	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	56%
Emotional Stability	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	53%
Orderliness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	46%
Altruism	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	46%
Inquisitiveness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	40%

You are a Promoter, possible professions include - real estate broker , chef, land developer, physical therapist, stock broker, news reporter, fire fighter, promoter, entrepreneur, pilot, budget analyst, insurance agent, management consultant, franchise owner, electrical engineer, aircraft mechanic, technical trainer, EEG technologist, radiological technician, emergency medical tech., corrections officer, flight attendant.

Take Free Career Test
personality tests by similarminds.com

pretty much what i'd like to do! i like flight attendant best, i know it's a overated job, but i guess it's every girl's dream! you get to doll up and travel and meet rich businessmen! *dreams* lol.

plastic surgery?

2006-03-24T02:20:00.000-08:00

so near yet so far? says:
http://www.friendster.com/user.php?statpos=bc&uid=25518304
so near yet so far? says:
this girl is so hot! i wanna turn lesbian
so near yet so far? says:
lol
사랑해요 sa rang hey yo ~ says:
wow.. she's pretty..
so near yet so far? says:
ya SHE'S PRETTY!
so near yet so far? says:
damn
so near yet so far? says:
haha
사랑해요 sa rang hey yo ~ says:
lol.. dar.. control control..
사랑해요 sa rang hey yo ~ says:
haha
so near yet so far? says:
i hope it's real
so near yet so far? says:
i mean her features
so near yet so far? says:
haha
so near yet so far? says:
i wan plastic surgery!
so near yet so far? says:
lol
사랑해요 sa rang hey yo ~ says:
hahaha
사랑해요 sa rang hey yo ~ says:
pengss..
사랑해요 sa rang hey yo ~ says:
save money lo
사랑해요 sa rang hey yo ~ says:
hehe

-_-" i don't know to rejoice because he's not against plastic surgery or to feel down cos he might be agreeing that i need a surgery lol.

but if i have the chance i'd really like to fix my eyes and jaws! i hate my hidden double eyelids, and it's such a hassle to use the eye tapes! and i hate my big face! eww. :(

DNA Test

2006-03-05T04:58:00.000-08:00

was kinda impatient and sleepy when i took the test..so i think it isn't quite accurate. But this test made me did some self-reflection and i realise that i seem to be often in doubt and feel uncertain of myself these days. dipping self esteem? :|
My Personal DNA Report

My first (paid) MP3!

2006-02-17T03:48:00.000-08:00

was chatting on MSN when an ad of a digital music download store caught my attention..

i thought 99cents was pretty reasonable so i decided to give it a try!

i wouldn't consider the music there very new but i have to say that the "newness" of the songs available had surpassed my expectations. They even had Sun YanZi's latest album! The other stores i'd visited in the past probably only had songs dated back in the 1990s lol. the site was relatively easy to navigate and after a while, i chanced upon westlife's album. i'm not a fan of them but their When you tell me that you love me duet with Diana Ross is so undescribable! it's that kind of song that sets you in the mood for love..Hopelessly romantic! :D

and so i decided to purchase it and proceeded with the payment. After the processing has been done, the page automatically redirected me to the song's link. simply click and after 'bout 3 minutes..

DOWNLOAD COMPLETE!
(i know i'm such a pain in the ass but if you were to notice carefully, they left out the "t" in "with"!
*grr* that's not very professional!)

Okay I tried to ignore it because i was still feeling excited with the first purchase so I hurriedly added it to my Winamp playlist (i know some of you may argue that windows media player is better blah blah but i'm still liking my good ol' Winamp for its simple features!). I waited and waited, but the song didn't play! Then a site surfaced:

WTH? not compatible?!?

I tried Windows media player instead. This time, a popup message appeared:

-_- i was getting impatient. So click OK lah..

FINALLY!
(argh I'm still irritated by the typo !!@%#$)

I also notice the song doesn't play immediately when it's been selected. Windows media player needs like 10 seconds to play it and in between the message "Opening media" will be flashed at the status bar. It can't be the player's problem as I have no problems with other mp3s. I wonder why.

Despite these technical imperfections, i still think that the $0.99 is reasonable considering the fact that the price of 1 CD consisting 10 songs costs $17 on rough estimates. quite wuhua la afterall. hehe.

Let's enjoy the song now! :D

When you tell me that you love me
I wanna call the stars
Down from the sky
I wanna live a day
That never dies
I wanna change the world
Only for you
All the impossible
I wanna do

I wanna hold you close
Under the rain
I wanna kiss your smile
And feel the pain
I know what's beautiful
Looking at you
In a world of lies
You are the truth

And baby
Everytime you touch me
I become a hero
I'll make you safe
No matter where you are
And bring you
Everything you ask for
Nothing is above me
I'm shining like a candle in the dark
When you tell me that you love me

I wanna make you see
Just what I was
Show you the loneliness
And what it does
You walked into my life
To stop my tears
Everything's easy now
I have you here

And baby
Everytime you touch me
I become a hero
I'll make you safe
No matter where you are
And bring you
Everything you ask for
Nothing is above me
I'm shining like a candle in the dark
When you tell me that you love me

In a world without you
I would always hunger
All I need is your love to make me stronger

And baby
Everytime you touch me
I become a hero
I'll make you safe
No matter where you are
And bring you
Everything you ask for
Nothing is above me
I'm shining like a candle in the dark
When you tell me that you love me

You love me
When you tell me that you love me

IQ Test

2006-02-17T01:48:00.000-08:00

Your IQ Is 110

Your Logical Intelligence is Below Average

Your Verbal Intelligence is Above Average

Your Mathematical Intelligence is Genius

Your General Knowledge is Above Average

A Quick and Dirty IQ Test

illogical above average math genius!
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ME! *holds head high* lol.

I see cobwebs here..hehe

2006-02-17T01:08:00.000-08:00

lotsa unfinished drafts but i'm just too lazy to update..not now at least. :P

**Random Stuff**
check out what the sexy name decoder says about me!

The first 2 words fits me to a T! The rest are just irrelevant. lol.

results release

2005-12-08T01:37:00.000-08:00

failed MR and MAB.

failing MR was expected but failing MAB was quite a shock. i put in the most effort for this paper since i didn't do well in the 2nd test, in fact i felt very confident before the exam but the paper was really tough. i knew i wouldn't do well but I didn't expect to fail. sigh.

as for the other 2 modules, was glad i passed the killer subject OE and gained distinction for MOR. I think it helped that MOR is the only module this sem to not only look at your exam grades but an overall so the project grades really helped alot.

i'm still quite calm as i've already prepared myself for the worst. but i swear i'm gonna work extra hard for my repeat modules next sem.

"no more last min, no more last min, no more last min.."

meanwhile, i'm gonna prepare myself for the progression interview. -_-

click to enlarge

i hope the director will be nice and encouraging instead of the your-result-sucks-please-get-out type. :)

for the benefit of those who are seeing stars due to the module abbreviations:
MR: Marketing Research
MAB: Management Accounting & Business
OE: Organisation & its Environment
MOR: Methods of Organisational Research

December, my favourite month of the year.

2005-12-06T02:10:00.000-08:00

a month has past without me realising. haven't been penning down my thoughts as i'm always kept occupied with numerous fantastic blogs everytime i logon! My current fave is Kenny Sia! I'm so attracted to ~~him~~ his entries! And he's definately potential husband material, MUST READ! lol.

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regarding the previous issue that was bogging me down, i've decided to perservere. it wasn't an easy decision; i went thru lots of struggling and contemplating, i'm really glad to have received many constructive comments from close friends which enabled me to think better. i think i've become a lil' more mature after this incident. hah. :x

(Special thanks to Angeline, I really valued your feedback and encouragement. You were able to understand what I was going through and gave me valuable words of wisdom even though our beliefs were completely different. *hugs*)

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thanks to recruit express, i got myself a temp job in Sulzer this hols. it's a Finnish Pump manufacturing firm. I truly LOVE this co! My colleagues are super duper nice peeps! They'd not hesitate to offer me a ride to Jurong Point after work and at times when i worked overtime, they'd secretly pack dinner for me (on the company's account)! lol. And did i mention they increased my hourly rate after my 2nd day there! =D Though busy, they're never hasty when guiding me through my work. This is the first time I feel that I'm part of the company, rather than being just a temp. I'm really lucky to have met them!

everything seems to falling nicely in place during this special month of the year. lalalala. :D
*keeping my fingers crossed for my upcoming results*

still..lost.

2005-11-05T05:18:00.000-08:00

i'm still vexed over the issue of whether to continue/terminate my course.

i told many friends bout my plans:

- some thought i was silly
- some thought it was a waste to give up
- some thought i was joking
- some said i "shen zai fu zhong bu zhi fu"
- only 1 fully supported me (thanks :) )

my mom kept dissuading me, even though i told her that was what i wanted, even when i told her what i know i was doing. she even thought i was skipping school (apparently she doesn't know that it's the study break) because i was home today. she thought i'd already informed the school that i wanted to withdraw from the course and chided me for not informing her.

as for dad, i never got a chance to speak to him as i never manage to gather the courage to. when i did, he'd be sleeping in his room.

i know they'd never be happy with this decision.

i think the depression is setting in again. last sat i just broke down infront of my parents. i couldn't stop crying. i even had the thought to hurt myself. i didn't do anything stupid of course but i felt really lost.

it really ain't easy. as much as i want to withdraw from the course, i'm actually very afraid of making the wrong choice. there're just too many things to worry about.

right now, i'm thinking of either taking a break from the course or converting to part time. i guess this is the best decision that would satisfy my parents and me. i've just wrote in to the course manager to ask for details. wish me luck.

:) good nite.

note: i'm not giving up the course because i know i am failing 1 module. i can't deny that had a little impact on my decision but the main reason for deriving at this decision is simply because "i cannot see where i'm heading". most undergrads can't and i find it really sad. that is why i want to take a different or perhaps more challenging path to "try out" the society and find out what i really want. with the experience i gather, i'd also like to fulfil my dream of being an entrepreneur one day. i deem that as a brilliant way to make me realise what i really want in life so i can live it to the fullest. but unfortunately, many others do not think the same way.

failed.

2005-10-25T23:25:00.000-07:00

i've never failed in any major exams.

today's paper might be the first.

went through hundreds of tutorial questions, flipped through thousands of printed handouts in the last 2 days..

the moment i saw the 5 unfamiliar short questions on the exam sheet, i nearly died.
why only 5 questions?!

i know i'd have to repeat the module given RMIT's regulations. they don't take into account project grades when you fail the exam, meaning if you fail the exam, even if you got distinctions for your projects, you'd still fail.

i don't know what to do now. halfway through the paper i was already wondering if i should start looking for a perm job. i really hate to repeat something i've done before.

i know i know i shouldn't have studied last min..but it's all too late.

the worst thing is, results are gonna be out on the 7th dec.
3 days before my bday.

why is everything going out of place now?

yawnzz.

2005-10-23T17:16:00.000-07:00

another lazy sunday afternoon..

slept at 7am and woke up about an hour ago. wanted to hit the books last nite but at 3.10am, the itchy fingers of my sis reached for the remote control and channel 55 was repeating Full House (Korean drama feat Song Hae Gyo and Rain)! I missed the front part when it was first broadcasted earlier!

SCV really has got absurd schedules. The first broadcast was ended only at 1am and 2 hours later, it's repeated again?!

anyway i couldn't resist it! we were glued to the sofa until the show finally ended at 5+. lol.

then me and sis started chatting until 7 when mommy woke up to get ready for her marketing. thought she'd nag at me for staying up late again but she didn't. i guess she's used to seeing me go to bed when she wakes up. lol.

these days i've been stocking up on my sleep cos i know i'm gonna lose them soon.
just 2 more days to my first paper!

weeping saturday nite.

2005-10-22T23:51:00.000-07:00

i have no idea why i'm feeling so frustrated but i'm glad my tears finally gave way. in moments when you have nothing to depend on, tears are your best friend. :)

hunger pangs..

2005-10-19T03:08:00.000-07:00

at 3.08am, I'm seriously craving for..

1. DURIANS!
my secret wish is to strike lottery/find a rich husband and live in a bungalow where i can grow my own durian trees in our backyard!

2. BAK GWA!
note to my jie: if you're reading this, pls buy some lin zhi yuan on your way back today! i love you! lol.

3. DONUTS!
esp. Bangkok's dunkin' donuts!

*drools*

*drools*

angry pms girl.

2005-10-18T01:53:00.000-07:00

i get very irritated at the slightest thing and i'd start shooting without consulting my brains. i think i might have unintensionally upset some others in the process. if you think you're a victim and happen to be reading this, sorry k? it's the time of the month lah, don't take it to heart!

besides my temper, i notice a few other things that happens without fail during this "critical" period:

- i spend even more compulsively (like i say i don't use my brains).

- once i eat, i can't stop. i will never feel full, even if i do, the feeling disappears after 3min, and then i'll start gorging myself again..

- i become uber clumsy. i will have problems balancing myself on the train and sometimes even when i'm walking i'll trip (no falls yet, fortunately) & just yesterday, i accidentally dipped my finger into a brand new pot of lipcolor while trying to screw the cover back!! now it has a ugly dent on it. argh!)

too lazy to retake the blur pic :P btw this lip stuff is great! :D

- another spastic incident but i'm not sure if i can associate it to pms or not..
i was flossing my teeth the other day when i felt something hard. i thought it was a huge piece of meat (couldn't see as it was a rear tooth), so i flossed harder and faster (feeling excited lol). when it finally break loose, i realise it was actually a part of my tooth, instead of that perceived "huge piece of stuck meat". i actually broke my tooth while flossing! how suay is that! !@#$%^&*

now it hurts whenever i eat something sweet or cold. bah. -_-"

my 1st paypal transaction!

2005-10-14T03:00:00.000-07:00

Woot! I bought an Anna Sui mirror for a lady in the states and she paid me via paypal.
It's really nice to receive a "You've got cash!" email! LOL. I heard Paypal exchange rates are pretty low so I won't be withdrawing the money. It'll be kept as my future shopping expense!

*jumps for joy*

Yes, nothing beats retail theraphy. I'm a hopeless (online) shopaholic. :P

Pls study study study study study..

if only i had 48 hours in a day..

2005-10-09T19:06:00.000-07:00

and a more intelligent brain to juggle both relationship and school..
i'd probably be a better person/gf.

unfortunately i don't.

i'm sorry to be such a huge disappointment.

neverending misunderstandings.

2005-10-09T04:17:00.000-07:00

Why? After 2 years?

"I admit I sounded tired that day, but that doesn't mean that because of my deadbeat tone, you should stopped calling me." -- you still do not understand.

"I can totally understand how disappointed u felt as I have gone through similar incidents before." -- what did i do? weren't all my sats/most of our common free time spent with you?

"Do you remember the incident in Taka? Do you think u have changed?" -- the taka incident was another problem/matter altogether. and yes, i think i changed - for the better.

"I was concern; in fact, I had asked your friend how your work in Erdinger was, but because I wanted to act apathy, I had to hide my feelings." -- why my friend again? why not me? why have to hide feelings? till now i still cannot understand why/accept the fact that you had to test me. haven't i been like that ever since we were together?

"I did ask you about your work, but you keep telling me nothing instead" -- once again, i hate sms. it would have been different if you called.

I spent my weekend thinking through the relationship. Really missed those splendid moments..
And I begin to wonder why we seem to be able to live with each other's differences until now..or was it a wrong move to hold on to the relationship quarrels after quarrels?

reply to the last relationship test.

2005-10-07T04:16:00.000-07:00

I'm really appalled that we had to resort to this "last relationship test".

Firstly, I would like to clarify that YES, I do visit your blog. Not everyday, but at least the last time was on 5th Oct, before my last entry. Your last entry (as dated 26 Sept) was not there. So apparently, your last entry was published after 5th Oct, and not on 26 Sept, so do not accuse me of not reading your blog.

Here's everything you might wish to know:

Yes I take very long to reply your smses, but I can assure you it's not just yours. Sometimes I'm really tired to the point when I can forget to bring my phone out or I'll just leave it in my bag the whole day. I admit that sometimes I see your good morning messages and never reply, but it was never intentional. At times it was due to my laziness, at times those messages just seem like a monotonous routine everyday, I thought you'd be able to "guess" my replies. I thought you understood me well enough to know that I didn't like to sms, thus no replies from me, but I was wrong. I believe all has been said in the smses I sent you yesterday.

Nevertheless, I do still admit that it's my fault for not replying your smses. Yes, despite my busy and tired schedule, you're amazed that I still manage to find time for online shopping. But what you failed to find out is that I'm almost always online after school as I know you're sometimes able to msn during work and you'd be online too after work. I thought we could communicate via msn, so I thought I could just do without the sms.

'Since I was lazy to sms, why won't I call?' you asked. I tried calling a few times, but each time, either you were busy or you sounded really tired, so it was natural that I stopped. I remember calling you sometime ago, crying. In the past, you would have no problem "detecting" that I was crying, but that night, you just didn't realize. When I told you about my problems, all I received was your deadbeat tone, so I figured I shouldn't continue to bother you.

Msn didn't seem to be appropriate for us as well, your replies were often slow; I didn't really had the chance to find out what you were doing. So blogging was used as my last resort, hoping you'd be able to see what i've typed.

Regarding your birthday, I'm really sorry. It's my fault for not being able to be the first to wish you. I was really glad when you told me your buddies asked you out because I know there was no way I can finish my project on time to pass you the cake personally. Then the week was really tough, I had to juggle 2 project deadlines. I admitted I had forgotten about the KTV thing, and when Dione asked me to join her at Momo, I merely took it as an offer to unwind myself. Moreover, I asked you along, I didn't think of leaving you behind at all. I know it's my fault for letting the important KTV session slip my mind, but it's really due to the stress that I faced then. If you had gently reminded me about the KTV session, I would have forgone the Momo invite without hesitation and went to KTV with you. Whatever it is, I can understand how disappointed you felt and I'm really sorry.

The next few days I was confirmed by Erdinger. I specially requested to Angeline that I want to keep the Saturday for you, because this time round I really wanted to make it up to you and bring you to the KTV session as promised. But on Friday night after work, you told me you had to work on Sat and you were going to a friend's chalet after that. I don't know if you can imagine but I was really disappointed. My plans failed again. That few days I could really sense your absence, I didn't receive the usual messages, didn't receive your offers to pick me up after work like what you used to do. I thought you were busy, so I didn't want to disturb you, even when I wish you were with me when I met a terrible customer. I was always on the lookout for you, hoping to see you smiling at me at a corner waiting for me to end work. I wasn't angry at all, I know you had your reasons for not doing the same.

I don't think posting all these would make any difference anyway.

I apologize for not being able to live up to your expectations and any form of hurt i've caused unintensionally during the quarrel. It's really difficult to maintain a relationship when a couple cannot even compromise on the form of communication used. Funny but true.

Lastly, you may feel that I don't seem to show care and concern as much as you want me to, but I do, just that it might not be obvious because I prefer to keep them to myself. That's me. :)

did he ever realise that..

2005-10-05T01:33:00.000-07:00

- i hate to sms
- i prefer to be taken care of rather than being reminded to take care of myself..

truly singaporean blog!

2005-10-05T01:04:00.000-07:00

I might be late to the party but i just happened to chance upon Rockson's blog.
His tian xia wu di Singlish is so entertaining! no one can fight sia! lol.

Check him out!

erdinger girl

2005-10-03T23:58:00.000-07:00

was busy working at raffles city's int'l wine and beer fair for erdinger for the past few days. though tiring, it was real fun sampling different wines and beers and great working with angie and simin!

while i met many nice peeps and interesting customers, i had my fair share dealing with disgusting uncles and cheapos who bargain for the freebies shamelessly. -_-

nevertheless, i'd say it was great experience! :D

photo deliberately made small to protect angeline..i know she hates the uniform! lol.

random arm exercise

2005-09-29T01:07:00.000-07:00

can you swing your arms in different directions at the same time?
i.e. left arm swinging forward and right arm swinging backward - at the same time!

i can't.

my left hand is retarded! it'll copy the right hand's direction after 1 round. argh.

p/s: if you can't, pls tag me! at least i know someone is with me! :)

where is..he?

2005-09-28T02:25:00.000-07:00

water activities, anyone?

2005-09-27T02:07:00.000-07:00

shit blogspot i'm writing this for the 3rd time! argh. -_-

besides makeup and shopping, i'm undergoing a water activity frenzy now!

look at my wishlist and you'll understand.
READ: diving, wakeboarding, sailing.

i don't do alot of sports but swimming is something which i've truly enjoyed since young.
i'm really glad my parents put me in swimming classes.
thus it's not easy to see why water activities appeal to me and is something i'd really like to experience. however, fulfilling this little dream has never been easy.
my psycho-ing skill sucks and various attempts to jio my friends have been rather futile..

"too busy lah!"
"dowan la so mafan!"
"waliew ex leh!"
"chey i go before liao!"

=(

i ever thought of signing up alone but i chickened out.
sad to say, i'm not that independent, yet.
someday i will.
or anyone who faces the same problem, contact me lah. :D

the sad obsolete jukebox.

2005-09-27T00:44:00.000-07:00

saw the ipod nano in real life last sat and i was dumbfounded. o_O"
it was so much smaller than what i had imagined!

Apple has been too too humble to call it pencil thin, it's diskette thin can!
yes diskettes, i.e. the obsolete floppy disks! it's so tiny you won't even notice if you lose it! it's such a cool gadget and i want it really badly!

BUT. why did Apple not add in the fm feature to make it PERFECT?!
i'm having second thoughts now as the nano doesn't have the fm feature!
i think i need the fm as i feel that i've totally lost touch with the new songs.
i want to regain my "walking jukebox" title.
i want to sing the latest pop song songs in town at kbox!

old liao everything also lost touch. i don't want to be obsolete like the floppy disk leh!! *sigh. boohoo.

the cool ipod nano

2005-09-21T23:48:00.000-07:00

i ~~want~~ need this!

Apple is way too cool! I thought Zen Neeon was cool and as a Singaporean, I really want to support Creative but this Nano so irresistable i gotta wave goodbye to Creative! It's merely 8.9cm tall and pencil thin! and did i mention they're able to store photos too? !!! I wished it came in more colours though, like the IPOD minis. but then if they were colored they wouldn't look as sleek as the black and white ones. nah i'm contradicting myself. *bleah*

well, what i really need is the $348! meanwhile, i shall decide btw black and white.. :D

what is it all about?

2005-09-06T01:40:00.000-07:00

sometimes i wonder if i could have everything i want in life, will i be a happier person? i doubt so. then what exactly am i lacking? i really wish i am a different person altogether. i hate to feel so negative but i cant help it. i'm not out to seek attention or anything, i'm really confused.

updates

2005-09-04T23:26:00.000-07:00

didn't want to keep blogging about my usual moody thoughts so this blog was left untouched for quite awhile. not much changes in my life 'cept that i permed my hair. till now, i still don't know if i like it or hate it. like it cos i always welcome changes to my hairstyle but hate it cos i think it's becoming really messy. some of the front parts have already straighten cos i keep tying it up, so if i let it down now i look like a stupid auntie. lol. will put up photos soon. :p

saw my dear "zhong eh", sheron, at FEP yesterday and she mentioned that she reads my blog. (now i know there are pple who silently cares/kpo about me, leave a tag la! it's nice to know!) we knew each other from IRC a few yrs back and then lost contact after i quitted IRC. had lots of fond memories back then! so touched that you actually still bother to find out about me through my blog after such a long time. heez. ask me out soon k! :D

Drizzle the cat!

2005-08-04T03:30:00.000-07:00

i remember talking about meeting Eugene's cat, Drizzle, when i visited his home for project sometime back. I requested him to send me Drizzle's pics as he was using it as his msn display pic!

I think Drizzle's the reason why I love cats!

incredibly cute right!!!!!!

sexy pose on bed!

self-doubt.

2005-08-02T02:58:00.000-07:00

some questions i keep asking myself repeatedly over the weekend..

whether i really had made the wrong choice to further my studies.

i knew i prefer work than school, why did i choose to ignore ME and do what everyone else is doing (i.e. to get a degree)? what was i trying to prove?

given a second chance, i wouldn't want to choose this path again.

but again, what would i be working as if i chose to start to work? dip in BIT. what can i do?

i wish i have goals in life.

i wish i was more disciplined.

i wish i was behaving like any other normal kid in school, diligently doing her assignments, happily researching for her projects.

i wish i was..better.

dong dong dong, kuishin-bo!

2005-07-27T03:50:00.000-07:00

Had buffet dinner at kuishin-bo with dar, dione and sebas!

IT WAS GREAT! the sushis, sashimis, desserts are to die for! everything looked so tempting we spent 4 hours there! YES! 4 hours of non-stop eating! Unbelievable.

The funny and interesting thing about the restaurant was that they have this "dong dong dong" thingy, whereby they'll play their restaurant jingle and give out special premium food. you'll just have to pay attention to their announcement. e.g. "Kuishin-Bo, the number 1 authentic Japanese food restaurant, is giving out our premium specials. The 1st 20 customers who comes to the counter will receive Lobster with mayonnaise!" LOL. They also gave out Black pepper seafood platter, Mochi ice cream and candy floss subsequently. However, we were so full and still busy stuffing ourselves with the "normal" food that we ignored both the lobster and seafood thingy. But when they announced Mochi ice cream and candy floss, i immediately grabbed dione's hand and went to queue for them. hah. *yum* having candy floss as part of a buffet dish is quite special ya? we even got to tabao 1 "ball" of candy floss each!

1st round: (clockwise) seasoned baby octopus, some random round crab (this one not nice! weird taste..), various sushis (the scallop/hotate very fresh! i like!) and the giant alaska snow crab (1st item to catch our eyes! but super tedious to eat and soso only la..)

2nd round: the paper steamboat! the soup is really nice! I think I only drank the soup and ignored the rest..too full lol. we're really amazed by the paper. how come it doesn't burn? how come no soot on the underside? japanese are really great inventors ha? in case you're curious about the food in the background, there's this mini seafood claypot (the size of the claypot attracted me! so cute! about 10cm in diameter only. but too bad the soup not nice! tasted too "veggie"), tempura stuff and yakitori, shark's fins soup (no shark fin one la, but the soup not bad. hee)

Sorry I forgot to take pics of the super fresh salmon sashimi and other nice stuff (esp. desserts!), was too carried away with the food and busy finding ways and means to hide the not-so-nice food so the waitress would come clear the plates lol.

In case you're wondering, we paid around $33/person for the buffet. Quite worth it i'd say, judging from the spread and quality of the food. =D

Hoping the next buffet will be at Shangrila's The Line. i wanna try the "chocolate fountain" badly!

my birkis from germany~

2005-07-14T00:25:00.000-07:00

My birkis are finally here!! *grins*
FootShopping is quite efficient, the whole order took only 12 days to arrive! =D

Loving mine to bits!

SIM..a new chapter

2005-07-13T01:05:00.000-07:00

life in sim has started and everything has been going quite smoothly..

- i like my timetable ALOT! (no classes on fridays! *jumps*)
- love the fact that SIM provides refreshments during breaks *yum*
- very glad that they also provide lecture notes! (no need to login to what student portal and download and print anymore *phew*)
- the lecturers are quite nice & dedicated

but i know these probably won't last very long. YES, projects (big scale, tedious ones) are coming. *hai* -_-

Before i go, a message to all:

PLS REFRAIN FROM REMOVING YOUR SHOES ON PUBLIC TRANSPORT. *disgusted*
this applies whether you're a man or female, standing or sitting, wearing socks or stockings, whether you're on a crowded mrt or quiet bus. pls be considerate. *tolong* the other commuters have done nothing wrong to deserve this. it's terribly unsightly, unhygienic, unacceptable, un-smellable, un-tahan-able, un-... in fact, no words can describe the anguish that we feel.

sigh. why do i keep bumping into such pple?

my baby dora

2005-06-17T04:16:00.000-07:00

dora will be spayed (sterilized) tmr. i really hope everything will be fine!

i realise i have never posted any photos of her here.

When she was a baby..

this was about 10 months ago! time really flies!

And now the arabic-styled one, taken last sunday after her 1st bath!

isn't she sweet? =D

hair perm!

2005-06-16T13:26:00.000-07:00

i went for a haircut today! as i was flipping thru the jap hairstyle's magazine, i was really envious of those feminine curls the models had! i could still recall a few years back when i went for the ceramic perm. it was such a disaster that i told myself it would be the 1st and last time! but that magazine really tempted me to try again. heez. Yvonne (my stylist) encouraged me to try it out, assuring me she understood what i want; natural soft curls, if not for my vitamin-M decificiency, i would have gone ahead! but she was VERY sweet to do a temp curl for me just to let me have a feel of how it looks.

BEFORE

messy old haircut

AFTER

after the temp curls were set

pic was taken in Bukit Panjang Plaza's toilet. *Heng* no one came in. lol. i still look auntie-ish but yvonne said the real perm would look much looser, those temp curling tongs couldn't achieve that kinda natural effect. had a plan to bluff dar with my "perm" but he couldn't receive the mms that i sent, so he said he'd come over after work.

After I reached home..

i realise there was no way i could bluff dar anymore. lol. the curls were gone! =~ thanks to my rebonded hair. *grr*

i miss the curls badly. i need a perm!! =D

new skin, finally!

2005-06-14T06:51:00.000-07:00

a refreshing new change! this skin looks so much better than the previous one don't you agree? ;)
i tink it'll look even better without the blogger navbar. can some teach me how to remove it?
gtg sleep now! nitey!

entry of an unemployed.

2005-06-09T03:36:00.000-07:00

i'm getting too lazy to update. have been busy enjoying myself ever since i became unemployed. hah. i want a part time job! anyone has lobang?

went shopping (again :x) with Dione today. it was a REALLY fruitful shopping trip. i'm so happy with my purchases! finally got my ipsa foundation and MAC products i've been lemming ever since last month. we met Aying, a super-duper nice and friendly MAC SA at DFS and spent almost 2 hours at the counter playing around with the colors! Aying's excellent service has make me disregard the fact that all MAC SAs are stuck-up. Now I WANT MORE!! :x Dione also gave in to the temptation and bought 1 eyeshadow, seems like MAC's really hard to resist huh. lol. =p welcome to the world of MAC, Dione! *evil grin* hah.

btw, i've received SIM's offer last week. However, they have yet to confirm the exemption outcome. it's getting frustrating and worrying. called them up and they couldn't give me an exact date as to when i will be given the outcome but i would have to pay the full sum of the 1st sem's fees which cost 5K. i've heard horror stories whereby RMIT only confirms the exemption outcome halfway through the 1st sem. i really don't want that to happen to me, such a waste of time and money. the whole system is just so sucky, slow response and complete lousy customer service. i really don't think this justifies the expensive fees that i'm paying. grr.

sorry..

2005-05-30T01:04:00.000-07:00

周杰伦 - 搁浅

久未放晴的天空
依旧留着你的笑容
哭过却无法掩埋歉疚

风筝在阴天搁浅
想念还在等待救援
我拉着线复习你给的温柔

暴晒在一旁的寂寞
笑我给不起承诺
怎么会怎么会你竟原谅了我

我只能永远读着对白
读着我给你的伤害
我原谅不了我
就请你当作我已不在

我睁开双眼看着空白
忘记你对我的期待
读完了依赖
我很快就离开

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sale-a-bration!

2005-05-28T01:41:00.000-07:00

it's the 1st day of GSS and i'm at home! that happens because
1) no shopping kaki (everyone's busy! with bfs, with work, etc :( )
2) lazy
3) end of the month (still waiting for my dear paycheque..)

lol.

nevertheless, online shopping is just as exciting! you disagree?

wait till you visit these:
ASOS --> their earrings and accessories are to-die-for! :D~
Foot Shopping --> Birkis are 30% cheaper there and they ship to SG with a minimum purchase!! **EXCITED**

i'm going crazy. i think i've virtually spent all of my May's salary before I even receive it. scary huh, since when did i become such a serious shopaholic?

**P/S: I have discount codes for ASOS. Just let me know if you need it! Or we could order together! More items = Less shipping fees! :D

a month later..

2005-05-20T01:32:00.000-07:00

phew. it's been a month since i last updated. i'm just plain lazy. my life hasn't changed a bit, keeping myself occupied with work, shopping and more shopping.

some updates:
1. sim application is still in progress. i got a shock cos i heard not 1, but 2 friends receiving their confirmation letter. called up SIM to clarify and they said they haven't got replies from RMIT for those holding BIT diplomas as they're still considering the exemption matters. ahh..that helped to put me at ease. but even till right now, i'm having second thoughts about pursuing further education. actually i really prefer work than study. but on the other hand, i just feel that i'm still a baby, i might not be THAT prepared to start working, this decision has been haunting me since months ago. that happens when you don't know what you want in life. pretty sad har. :( i really envy those who have already had their career paths carved out. i'll just go with the flow. if SIM accepts me, i'll study, reject me, go work lor. :) i believe and hope i'll be able to carve out my own career path soon.

2. 31st may will be my last day at Jurong Island as my colleague is coming back. though the work there is boring, i think the colleagues there are really nice people. pleasant working experience with the angmos! after which i (should) have another job waiting for me, but still comtemplating. pay not satisfying enough. lol. i also wanna enjoy leh! besides labour day and the coming vesak day, i didn't enjoy a single day of holiday! have been working since exams ended. had a sudden urge to visit Taipei again when i at work (or dream) this afternoon. i really miss the night markets and pretty and friendly salesgirls! out of boredom, i checked out cathay's prices. for 2 pax, the air tix alone already cost almost $1200 including taxes. blah. suan le.

3. i've finally activated my amore package. attended the New Body class at the cine branch last sunday with ah tab and it was fun! felt so energized after the session! (minus the muscle aches i suffered for 2 days after that..) overall, i'm quite satisfied with its facilities; gym, towel rentals, lockers, saunas, dressing tables, hairdryers, and mirrors almost EVERYWHERE! looking forward to the introductory pilates class this sat. :D i wanna lose 3kg by the end of the 3 month package! wish me luck! hah.

some proud achievements:
- we ate subway after class that day (my idea okay!) according to the poster on the wall, the burger i selected only contain less than 300 calories! *proud*
- i only requested to skip the olives and ate the 80% of the veggies! (gave them up on the last few mouthfuls so my mouth tasted so veggie-ish i couldn't stand it anymore! i think the amount of veggies i have eaten on that day is almost equivalent to what i've eaten in my whole 20 yrs of life. lol)
- i manage to skip the Haagen Daz flavour of the month - TIRAMISU. (oh damn. :x)

wo hui jia you de! :D

15.04.2005 - It's not goodbye, it's time to fly..

2005-04-21T19:34:00.000-07:00

i didn't regret attending the prom though the preparation (dress, shoes, accessories, etc) almost cost me an arm and a leg. lol. i really had fun taking photos with my precious friends. after that nite, we'll be heading different ways. boys will be men. girls will..erm marry rich man? lol. only fate will be able to bring us together again. i really hope we still keep in touch, i'm starting to miss you already! ok la, shall stop being so corny. :x

some photos taken..

the yummy door gift. didn't want to eat it but couldn't resist it. lol. :D~

ting, angie and me! love you girls! :D

TT07

my jiemei jerome & me..lol.

trefor and me. he looked so hot that nite! lol. well, this pic didn't do him justice. haha.

greg & me. standing behind me to prove that he's a head taller than me. lol.

take good care guys! :)

i'm still alive!

2005-04-21T18:34:00.000-07:00

haven't been updating for 3 weeks and that's how long i've been working.

life has become so monotonous since. it's the weekends and paycheck that keeps me going. but after all, it's not that bad lah, i don't have to worry about the crowded public transports in the mornings and after work - my company chauffeur will drive me to and fro in his cool mercedes-benz (lol). Late? He'll wait, no problem!

what's more, lunch's provided. my lovely chauffeur aka the chapalang man will take orders everyday. fishball mee, spaghetti, burger king, you name it, he'll buy it!
if i'm not going out on that particular day, i don't even have to bring my wallet. :D

did i also mention i have an office boy to help me make milo, cut fruits for me during lunch, punch holes on documents, etc? (i dun utilise him alot btw, i dun wanna become too lazy and grow fat! :P)

btw, i'm only a secretary aka receptionist aka admin aka small fry. lol.

with all these benefits, i shouldn't be complaining. haha. i'm indeed more fortunate than my most of my friends. :)

looking forward to my paycheck. i can't wait! my wishlist is getting longer. lol.

oh, results are out today. 1A, 1B+, 2 Bs, 1C+. just what i've expected, as usual. but the C+ is really ugly. *grr*

i'm getting sick of this skin. promise i'll change as soon as a new decent one catches my eye in blogskins.com!

tata!

daddy's bday

2005-04-04T01:59:00.000-07:00

as usual, we went out for dinner together. chose east coast's long beach this time round as dad received a discount voucher from them. had lots of seafood (yummy esp geoduck clam and pepper crab..=D~) and lots of fun! i'm sure dad has enjoyed himself. =D he was so surprised when he asked for the bill but the waiter came with a cake instead. lol.

here are the pics:
(pardon the unclear pics..my photo editor software sucks..)

look at daddy's eyes! he's eyeing the cake..LOL!

happy family

And some pics of me and dar taken at home..

:)

Not really tired..so used to sleeping at 6 these days. but i'm starting work tmr..so have to force myself to bed no matter what. Hope everything will go on smoothly tmr! ;)

Ciao!

my sat @ orchard

2005-04-03T05:50:00.000-07:00

Bought this (courtesy of dar..heez)..

it's a double eyelid liquid with a "poker". See the first video here for product demo if you're interested. haha.

And photos taken outside Cineleisure..

jessie, ah tab and me! :D

and this special pic..

hehe..good nite!

yeah!

2005-03-31T13:35:00.000-08:00

last paper is over..finally! i feel so light now! (my mind, not my body..*sad*) lol

2 amazing videos (thanks to keith):
http://abfhm.free.fr/basket.swf
http://www.ebaked.com/blog/human-target-video/
look at how zhun my husband (daniel wu :P) is. lol.

alright, gd nite!

sis is back!

2005-03-30T20:08:00.000-08:00

and this is what she's got me..

i can never get enough of MAC. =D and the orchids are pretty aren't they! i spent quite awhile putting them ok! lol.

and..

wanted her to get kahlua but she got this instead cos the salesperson says this tastes better. will report back once i've tried. the bottle looks quite interesting though. half coffee liquer, half vanilla cream liquer. btw, i know the leaf looks funny, but if never put very plain ma. lol.

and..

some others not suitable to be shown here. :P

pardon me for this wuliao entry, i'm a little crazy after 3 papers. looking forward to friday! :D

sucky week ahead

2005-03-28T00:03:00.000-08:00

exams sucksssss. argh. they always say time flies. can i skip this week with a blink of an eye? naive. ok.

humpty nicole had a great fall.

2005-03-27T04:13:00.000-08:00

went to holland v for dinner then headed to breko with my usual gang.

everything was fine until i slipped and fell on the flight of stairs (the one that leads you to the 2nd level). so embarassing! but it really hurts. if not for dar who held me from behind (thanks! :D), i guess i would have rolled down the stairs. *heng* i also wanna thank a gentleman who helped pick up my slipper, though i know he won't be able to see this. there're really kind souls around. :)

my ankle still hurts. i think i sprained it. think god's punishing me for not being hardworking enough. :x

btw, i think breko should seriously consider upgrading that flight of ulu stairs to an escalator. lol.

holiday mood

2005-03-26T12:17:00.000-08:00

dad has gone to malaysia and sis to bangkok..i'm soooo envious! how i wish my exams were over and i can join her there. =( nevertheless, i'm feeling excited cos i gave her a list of items to look out for me when she gets there. hopefully, she'll be able to get me something i like! the suspense is kinda fun huh. lol. but, even if she doesn't get anything there, i'm already a happy girl as she's just called me from the airport telling me she's got me the stash from M.A.C duty free already. 3 eyeshadows, 1 eyeliner, 1 blusher..=D~

bon voyage to both of them! ;)

good friday

2005-03-25T16:15:00.000-08:00

revision status: almost 0%.

oh dear, i'm left with 3 days before the 1st paper!

wanted to be a good girl last 2 days but my mom told me her friends' daughter's company at Jurong Island has a temp job vacancy. when i asked what job it was, blur mom just told me "i duno, just something to do with the computer. they're paying 1.2k." of course i thought 1.2k was little, but i still called to enquire, thinking i can skip the hassle of looking for a job after the exams.

the lady did not tell me the exact designation of the job, but from her vague task descriptions (issuing of POs, taking orders, preparing documents), i can safely say it's an admin job. then after finding out that i had some experience in the past, she asked if i could make a trip to the office the next day (which was yesterday) so that she could handover her job to me. there was little time for me to decide so i just agreed. I felt 1.2k (transport and meals provided) was not alot but enough to tide me over the 3 months while waiting to go into SIM. moreover, Jurong island, being so ulu, has no shopping centres, thereby eliminating the chances of me spending during lunch breaks.

So there i was, at jurong island yesterday, quite excited (lol) as it's my 1st time there. I'm working on an entirely reclaimed island! Also, it's a restricted place to anyone unless you're working there. The whole place looks like a typical rural part of Malaysia, with no buildings around, mainly grassland minus the cattles.

My office is on the 2nd storey of a "3-storey structure" (i duno what to call it! it's like a building built out of containers) near the sea. if you're lucky, you'll be able to view the sea from your seat. unfortunately, the view in front of my cubicle is a piece of grassland, looking somewhat deserted. lol.

after i was introduced to all the colleagues there (not many, only 6), my colleague (the lady whom i'm suppose to replace, let's call her MH) started by calling her HR dept in Pandan road. This office here at Jurong Island is merely a temporary site as they're in charge of a project here. She told the HR that i had experience (before i even started on the job lol) so i was offered 1.4k instead. haha. my highest paying job ever, although 1.4k is still considered low for a future-diploma holder. lol. =x well, humans are nv satisfied. =p Then the "training session" started, quite stressful as it's quite different from my previous jobs and there're so many things to be learnt! The tasks are not difficult, but having to know everything by 1 day is seriously, TOUGH!

when i was on the van going home talking to another colleague, she told me the previous girl who came to replace MH (she frequently takes long unpaid leaves, but i don't know why) had 1 week to learn everything from MH. *Jaws drop* 1 week! i have only a day! Moreover, i'll only be starting work a week later due to exams, I might have forgotten what I have learnt already?! Just hope nothing goes wrong then. *Prays*

Alright, revision time! sorry for the long post. :D
Those who aren't studying already, have a great long weekend! ;)

study week, lazy me

2005-03-23T03:56:00.000-08:00

it's the 2nd day of the study week and i have not started my revision! shame on me!
i do have my reasons (or what some peeps call excuses) though:

- mon: was busy doing research on SIM. had to decide fast cos closing date of application falls on the same day as my last paper next week.
outcome: take up RMIT's BBA majoring in Marketing.

- tue: went to SIM to get application form and verify documents. then went to kim's place at tampines for dress fitting. then since i was there, did some shopping. =x

okay, i swear i'm gonna start my revision tmr. i do feel guilty. =(

xiaxue

2005-03-23T03:01:00.000-08:00

reading xiaxue's blog is so so entertaining. her style of writing, her practice of freedom of speech, and everything on her blog never fails fascinate me. i'm hooked! lol.

fancy going to an igloo for a drink? GO EskiBar!

2005-03-20T04:10:00.000-08:00

after seeing it being publicised in Channelnewasia, decided to patronise the bar with dar. had a hard time finding it cos i wasn't sure where it was! the only clue i got from some online forums was it's at tanjong pagar, and it's near craig road. but where on earth is craig road?! lol. After much pains and when we were going to give up, we found the place, only to know that we've missed it earlier on. haha.

And i'm glad i found it. Love the bar's concept, ambience, waitresses' uniforms, and the TEMPERATURE! The bar is divided into 2 sections; the freezing area (which can go down to -1 deg) and the not-so-cold area (normal aircon temperature). The freezing area is actually a real freezer and it's really cold! so cold that there'd be fog coming out from your mouth as you talk. Also, you wouldn't be able to feel the alcohol heating up your body as it's too cold already!

according to channelnewsasia, the lady boss came up with this freezer concept as she couldn't find any place in sunny Singapore to flaunt her winter clothings. thus, she started this bar, hoping it'll help others who encounters the same problem. interesting huh?

when we were there, the not-so-cold area was fully occupied, so we had to endure stay put at the freezing area. at that moment, they were actually defrosting (around 5 deg) so the the area wasn't at its coldest, but still, we couldn't stand it! i felt so cold i couldn't talk properly. lol. (i was wearing a spag top and jeans) fortunately for us, a group left and we took over their seats in the not-so-cold area. lol. The deco there was more cozy, white walls and furniture with dim lights - nicE! Then we ordered their signature drinks; sleeping polar bear & eski blue. I like sleeping polar bear alot! it contains kahlua, the chocolate/coffee liquer, think tiramisu. We went on to play cards. I was commenting on how they could have been able to earn more if they added finger food on their menu, when i saw the waitress serving a packet of something (obviously food) to another table. I figure they allow external orders from the tze-cha store next door and asked the waitress for the menu. We ordered prawn paste chicken! Quite shiok ah..delicious prawn paste chicken in a igloo! lol. (however, we were quite embarassed when the waitress served it to us. prawn paste is quite stinky, until u've eaten it..lol.)

after we finished the food, we decided to go to the freezing area again. this time, we borrowed jackets from them (yes, they have extras! how thoughtful!) and stayed there for a 2nd drink. i was so in love with Kahlua i asked the waitress if there was anymore chocolatey drinks. she consulted the bartender and he recommended "Screaming orgasm" (lol, interesting name) which was not in the menu. yummy!

When we finished the drinks, I suggested that we take off our jackets and endure for 10minutes! (it was around 0deg then) woah..i could feel my feet feeling numb..lol. it was really fun though. We also saw a dumb angmo walking into the bar, ordering an Evian. it costs $12! A glass of heineken costs the same there! When the waitress handed him the bill, he was like $12?! Dunno whether to laugh or feel sorry. Felt really heart-pain for him..a kopitiam was just a few steps away! Perhaps they didn't sell evian, but i believe a ice mountain there wouldn't cost more than 2 bucks! lol.

Really enjoyed myself there. it's my first time pubbing with dar alone too! the staff there are friendly, esp the bartender. however, the downside eskibar is that the drinks are quite pricey, around $12-$15 each, no cover charge though. also, they do not accept reservations as it's small, think those tiny pubs at boat quay. that explains why they are not able to serve their own finger food as they can't afford to have a kitchen due to space constraints. (good news is, they're opening a larger branch at thomson which is double the size!)

You guys should give this bar a try! Some things to take note though: avoid wearing heels! it may get stuck in btw the rubber mats (which are placed in the freezer area to prevent slipping) And wear more! Skirts are a nono. They only provide jackets, no bottoms! Best if you're able to wear your winterwear. Flaunt it! :D

cute phone

2005-03-19T15:19:00.000-08:00

was surfing through singtel's website. i'm so in love with this phone.

a darling isn't it? don't worry. i'm still loyal to my 7610. :D

bye IIP, hi exams, hi decisions

2005-03-19T05:48:00.000-08:00

Like what my title suggests, IIP's (Integrated Infocomm Project) over! We had our final presentation today. Glad that everything went on smoothly. But before i even have a chance to heave a sigh of relief, I can see the exams waving to me. and very soon, i'll have to make BIG decisions that will affect the rest of my life - to continue studying or to start working.

It's really a tacky problem cos i'm left with private commercial schools as there's little chance any local uni would accept my b-c average grades. SIM, MDIS, what have you. Mom has been very supportive, she'll accept whichever path that I choose. So i don't wanna disappoint her by taking the wrong step.

I'm in a dilemma.

I want to work, I'm always eager to enter the real working world. I want a career! I want to be financially stable and independent! There're so much more that I want to achieve. A diploma might not be able to bring me far enough. What if I'm deprived of promotion chances just because I'm only a Diploma holder? (okay, i'm thinking too much.)

On the other hand, i dread school - assignments, projects, exams are on my #1 hate list. Entering a uni will mean another 3 yrs of commitment. But it'll provide me with a HUGE stepping stone that I desire. (though I don't know if that's the case for private degrees, anyway, are they recognised or not huh?) But Wo ke yi ma? can i be disciplined for another 3 yrs? *shrugs*

Aiyo, decisions are never easy. =(

Just sent an enquiry to SIM. Will wait for their reply before I decide on my final choice. For now, sleep time! Tomorrow will be my long awaited retail theraphy session. =D

last day of sch + sat ktv

2005-03-13T05:12:00.000-08:00

fri was the last day of sch. knowing that i'll miss the cheap and good canteen food, meiting and me walked all the way to canteen 4 to have the best chicken chop and papaya milk for the last time. it's really nice! i'm gonna miss it!

then we went to the library to borrow a book for the mec assignment. it's my first time borrowing a book in school! fancy it being the last day of school. lol. then recalling that i've run out of contact lens, i went to the school optical shop. they didn't have stock for my degree, so they offered to do a home delivery to me. good service huh! that means i can still enjoy the dirt cheap prices even after i leave NP! then i got psychoed by the uncle to get a pair of purple lens. hai. i'm broke!

went to atrium's bazarre after that. couldn't resist the temptation to shop and i bought a pair of earrings and diamonte star necklace which i love to bits. heez.

Total damage: $45 - guilty but happy. lol. afterall, it's the last day of school right? =p

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went to clementi's kbox today. was quite tired cos i didn't sleep last night - did the mec assignment till 1pm today (yes i slept from 2-7pm only!). the system's quite lousy, hanged several times until they had to replace the CPU. and in btw, several songs were skipped for no reason. !@#$% nevertheless, had fun with dar and yvonne. the funny thing is, when i singing "Qing ai de ni zen me bu zai wo sheng bian", i thought of carine. we haven't met for ages! the last time was during cny. hopefully will get to see her next week. heez.

alright, i need to replenish my sleep already! finally had a chance to sleep peacefully without worrying about deadlines anymore! =D

chimaomao

2005-03-09T01:15:00.000-08:00

i've always had a phobia for cats since young because of their evil-looking eyes. however, my opinion seemed to have change since i started having dora (my pet bunny). Bunnies and cats are actually quite similar; both are meticulous groomers, keeping themselves clean all the time, and in terms of character, they're quite aloof animals (compared to dogs), and come to you only when they want attention or when they're hungry. despite this, i have developed a strong liking for them for being such adorable animals. my love for cat grew when i saw eugene's (my wisp groupmate) cat, Drizzle, when doing a group project at his home. I was really surprised when I was told that Drizzle is actually a stray cat as he had a really nice white coat and portrayed itself gracefully, even though he had an injured foot, he just look like any expensive-looking imported cats you'd see in a pet shop.

i happened to be watching channel 8's new serial "Lu Se Guo Shi" during dinner time today and the guy in the show was bidding farewell to a really tiny kitten (almost palm-size) as he was leaving the country. the kitten is so so cute! but my sis immediately interupted by saying "grow up not cute liao la". true, they'll pass their cute stage and mature to become graceful instead of cute. but i believe they exert a different kind of beauty at different stages, just like humans. (my piece of advice: don't ever own a pet because they look cute when they're young! love them for what they are, not how cute they look!)

having said that, i wonder why there isn't any dwarf-breed cats since there're chiwawa for dogs and netherland dwarves for rabbits. Or perhaps i wasn't aware of their existence. Chimaomao sounds really cute. lol.

Alright, back to work.

Deadlines
Thurs: IIP Project
Fri: ERP PBL 2
Sat: MEC Blog
Awaiting Sunday's arrival!!!

PS: Happy 1.5 yr anniversary to my dar! :D

back to reality

2005-03-01T01:18:00.000-08:00

time REALLY flies. I'm back in SG for the 3rd day already. Bangkok was real fun! think it help brought me closer to my friends. I missed every bit of it, esp the tuk tuk and shopping. spent almost 500 bucks in 4 days. lol. feeling a tad guilty now..hah. but i'm definately going back! soon i hope..heez.

now..back to my work. i'll be kept busy and stressed till the end of the week. next week will the last week of lessons. feeling weird..relieved yet she bu de and scary. still cant believe i'm gonna graduate in a month's time..omg.

**sorry guys, i have no idea why the pic got deleted away since it was hosted by imageshack. bear with the ugly layout k, i'll change it when i have time!

bangkok getaway

2005-02-22T19:10:00.000-08:00

have not updated for quite some time. i've been too tired to do anything. deadlines after deadlines.

15 hours later, i'll be in bangkok for a school field trip cum shopping spree trip. hope everything will turn out well and i'll be able to enjoy and rewind.

when i come back, it'll be disastrous with 3 assignments due next mon. will just forget about these temporarily. don't wanna spoil the holiday mood, though i should be there "learning", what the lecturers keep emphasizing. -_-

alright, will update when i'm back.

valentine's day

2005-02-15T02:40:00.000-08:00

it's getting late so i'll just keep it short.

it was a very simple day for us as we were all busy to plan so everything was impromptu. i declared that i didn't want any flowers on this day cos I thought it was a waste of money and i always have problems handling their "after-life". lol. I used to press them against magazines to make dried flowers but after a few bouquets, i became lazy. so this time round, I made sure he didn't buy me any! lol. I got a toy flower instead. found it childish at 1st, but now as I look at it, it's quite cute actually. lol. we went to Plaza Sing's Secret Recipe for dinner. the queing time was pretty fast, but the waiting time of the food nearly killed us. it took them more than an hour to serve us the food! in the end, we requested that we had our desserts first as we were afraid we'll be late for the 9.30 movie. So we gobbled all our food in less than 30minutes time. lol. it would have been better if we weren't in a rush, the food was quite nice in my opinion. =D~ then we went for the movie Seoul Raiders after that. A pretty nice show, with my fave Tony Leung in it. =) We managed to catch the last train home.

Although the day was simple, I'm contented. At least it managed to ease my tension temporarily. Happy Valentine's! ;)

PS: Oh ya, in case you're wondering why we didn't exchanged presents, we've agreed to exchange it at a later date, when dar gets his 1st pay. lallalala. lol.

disgust.

2005-02-14T02:39:00.000-08:00

i cant believe cny holidays are over. i really dread school. i hate to face the never-ending to-do lists. i cant concentrate. i'm drained. i failed to complete my e-learning assignments. there're so much more assignments, projects, deadlines to be met. everything isn't right. what's the matter with me?

Fa Cai Fa Cai!

2005-02-10T04:00:00.000-08:00

Happy New Year! Da Jia Fa Cai! It's my favourite time of the year after Xmas. It's the time of the year when I get to catch up with my cousins, aunties, uncles, etc and relive the Chinese "Tuan Yuan" spirit. Of course, another thing to look forward to are the angbaos! Since I'm hitting 20 this year, I'm gonna cherish my last few angbao-collecting years! :D

Went to River Angbao with Dar, Ah TAB and Jessie to watch the fireworks. I really enjoyed it! It's really "Heng Mei!!" That's the 2 words TAB and me kept repeating over and over again throughout the 3 minutes. It was so so nice that we could only use "heng mei" to describe it. We were lost for words, or you could say we had limited vocab. lol. :x

We watched "I do I do" after that. I like Jack Neo's movies. Simple, good and entertaining at the same time. Could see some improvements this time round, the songs were improved slightly, better tunes though they still sounded "Cheena", and they also added some animations similar to Kungfu, albeit a little fake at times, it's good that they're trying out new things. I also like how Hui Ge was "recycled" over and over again in the movie. lol. Go watch it guys!!

Had lots of fun today, though I hated how my heels almost killed me.

Nevertheless, May the Rooster Year be a prosperous year for everyone! Have fun collecting angbaos for the remaining 14 days! ;D

tests are bad for health!

2005-02-06T02:49:00.000-08:00

I'm so so relieved that the tests are over! for the past week, i hardly slept more than 3 hours per day. When I was supposed to catch up with my beauty sleep after the last paper yest, I had to go to AH to re-make my retainers! Apparently, the part-time maid thought it was some plastic and threw it away. As I didn't had an appointment, I waited 3 hours before they were finally able to squeeze me into the busy schedule. :( Let me describe the steps for those are interested.

1) Lie down
2) Open my mouth
3) Dentist inserts a plastic mould filled with a chewing gum-like substance and press it against my teeth to get the shape.
4) Rinse my mouth
5) Bid farewell to the dentist after she instructed me to come back again the next day to collect it.
(Note: The above steps took no more than 5 minutes)

The interesting part: It costs $77!
Waited 3 hours for 5 minutes to pay $77. *Pounds chest*

Did I go home after that? No (of course). lol. I went shopping alone at Queensway Shopping Centre & IKEA. I don't know when it started but I'm starting to enjoy shopping alone. You can go to any shop, look at anything you want, at your own pace. The funny thing is, I always attract aunties. lol. I found a couple of aunties smiling to me in IKEA. I recall one incident vividly. I was looking at the $5 wooden blinds and was deciding whether to buy or not. I finally made up my mind to get it when 1 malay auntie walking towards me smiled to me and commented, "Aiyo this stuff, $5 also no one buy lah." lol. I didn't buy it the end. What if I saw that auntie at the cashier? haha.

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Woke up at 10.30 (SO EARLY for a SAT!) today as I had to collect my retainers at 12. Dad and Mom drove me there. Went to get some new yr groceries after that. We spent $80+ at the supermarket! We were so shocked dad even asked me to double check the receipt. haha.

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Went home to prepare and met up with dar and sis to go town after that. Me and sis made an appointment with Hollywoods Secrets for eyebrow trimming but we were 2 hours late. So, we decided to walk-in and try our luck. However, they didn't accept walk-ins as the entire shop was packed (with ladies)! 60% doing manicure, 35% eyebrow trimming, 5% others. Everyone wants to look good for CNY. :D

Sis went to meet mum at Bugis but I chose to continue shopping at Orchard with dar. Bought 3 tops and a skirt today! Total Damage: $129. >_< I haven't been keeping to my budget lately. I need to control! No more new clothes for the next 1 month!

Met up with Ah Tab and her sis at Cine to fill our stomachs after all the shopping. Tingting noticed the GAP bag and asked if I had bought it online. I never mention anything about the bag before. She got to know it through this blog! (Weeet. At least I know I do have visitors. lol. Other silent readers please tag me! Let me have a chance to thank you for visiting! Heez.)

Okay I'll stop now. Looks like my body is starting to protest. I'm starting to have the sore throat and flu symptoms. I'd better sleep! Being sick is the last thing I want to happen on CNY!

Sweet dreams!

Regrets.

2005-02-03T00:01:00.000-08:00

I cannot believe my eyes.

(From NP mail)
Subject:
2005-06 NUS Admission Exercise for Polytechnic Applicants/ Faculty Talks

Please note that from 2005-06, ALL DIPLOMAS are acceptable to apply for:

Arts & Social Science
Business Administration
Music

I should have worked harder, right from the start. Why would NUS want to accept a lazy girl like me?

Pls girl. Concentrate. Start studying for your MIS tomorrow.

A Pleasant Friday.

2005-01-29T02:02:00.000-08:00

It's been quite some time since i updated my blog! Nope I wasn't busy studying during this break week. I simply kept myself busy by actively shopping in Yahoo Auctions! lol. I got myself 2 bags! Too bad my Nokia cable can't work, or I'd have posted the pics here. :p

I had a pleasant surprise for today's MEC paper. Before going in to the LT (Yes, our common tests are conducted in LTs), I was still in a very panic mood as I didn't manage to complete revision for all chapters (as usual :x). But when I saw the paper, I realised half of them were MCQ Questions much to my relief! lol. I think the lecturer announced this during lecture but I didn't notice, so I was the only suaku one around, grinning from ear to ear. Haha.

Went home after the test. Wanted to have a good rest but can't resist Dar's offer to go out. Heez. I feel like I'm already having the holiday mood though I still have 4 papers to go! We went to Orchard (again..), had dinner with Siangrui & Gary at Far East Plaza, then they left for Chinablack, so me and dar went shopping. I got 2 nice earrings from Future State (courtesy of Dar, heez).

I'm a happy girl. 2 earrings + 2 bags. =D

McSpicy Double + Double Chocolate w/whipped cream.

2005-01-23T04:00:00.000-08:00

Yes that's what I had for dinner-cum-supper!

Change of plans at the last min. Suddenly, I just felt like going to West Coast Park's Mac instead of Breko. I like the place there, good ambience and decor, and more "rural" compared to the rowdy Holland V. However, I don't deny that both places are perfect spots for coffee sessions. The thing is, both are quite inaccessible from my place. =(

Met up with Ah-TAB (lol), Tingting and Mandy together with dar. I had a great time. Was finally able to unwind after a stressful week. I really enjoy coffee sessions like that, where you share jokes and talk about anything under the sun.

Oh and I saw Ann Poh (the famous well-endowed artiste who speaks with a Malaysian accent from ex-Channel U) there with her 2 daughters. She wore a baggy tee and 3/4 pants, no different from any auntie-next-door. Women's life really hard huh..out of 10, i think 8 will become huang-lian-po when they become mothers. *Sigh. I just hope that when my turn comes, I'll still be diligent enough to doll myself up, I don't wanna be an auntie!

Alright I'll go to bed now. Meeting Angie and ting for some shopping tmr!

Assignment completed!

2005-01-22T22:17:00.000-08:00

Finally! I took 9 hours to complete the e-biz plan! Of course, the time includes snacking, gossiping, bathing, etc lol. It's certainly not quality work! But I'm proud of myself for being able to complete it before the deadline. Many a time I just wanted to ignore the assignment and enjoy my Saturday. Thank god I was disciplined enough to make myself stray from that idea! =D

With that, I'll enjoy my last 1 hour+ of my Sat! Off to Breko!

comfort eating

2005-01-22T17:25:00.000-08:00

I always plunge into comfort eating whenever I feel stressed. I basically munch on everything I can see and reach.

The damage due to e-Biz Plan (latest figures):
- a XXL pot of fried rice (enough for 3 portions - meant for my dad and mom)
- 1 pack of grape gummy (finished in less than 5 min while thinking of the plan)

The worst part is, I don't feel full after all these. Does that mean that my brain isn't working? It's suppose to sense that I have ate alot and should send signals to my body that I am full so that I can stop eating.

OK. Whatever. Back to work.
I'm going out today no matter what.

Argh!

2005-01-22T13:00:00.000-08:00

It's my precious Saturday and I'm stuck with this stupid E-Biz Plan. How to create one when I know nuts about the business? This is shit!

on my way to a more balanced life.

2005-01-20T23:58:00.000-08:00

Signed up for the Amore 3month package today! Though my wallet is screaming, I'm feeling quite excited..It's been so long since I last exercised! Will be shopping around for my sports attire before I attend the first lesson. I can't wait to attend the kickboxing and pilates classes! I wanna lead a more balanced life. I wanna be fit! :D

Though I've successfully submitted the long overdue assignment today, my heart's still not settled. I have another deadline to meet this Sat! I have been slogging ever since the sch term started. This sem is definately not fun at all. I long for my freedom. Can't wait for this sem to be over. *Sigh.

But for now, let's celebrate Hari Raya Haji and my long awaited break week! Ahh..finally!

Monday blues.

2005-01-18T02:01:00.000-08:00

Pretty restless today but thanks to Suwoon, her nick in msn managed to perk me up a little:

"At weddings, old aunts used to tease me saying "you're next, you're next." But they stopped since I started doing the same to them at funerals."

=D

Supposed to meet ting and angie after school to shop but in the end i cancelled it as i still have unfinished assignments. (I'm sorry!) In the end, I went to BBDC to get a form for BTT. Everyone around me have already started taking lessons, thus causing my inner kiasuism cells to act up. lol. I have yet to book a date for the test yet, as dar recommended that I book the date only when I've mastered the book, which I thought was a good idea as it would not add on to my stress level. Moreover, work is piling up again. I guess I have to wait till the mid term tests are over.

Prayers.

2005-01-17T03:17:00.000-08:00

Oh dear I'm 1 week late for my assignment but it seems that I can't finish it by tonight or I'll never be able to sleep tonight! I'm guilty I lied to the nice tutor. Hope he doesn't bug me for my work tmr. I promise it'll reach him on Tues! *Prays*

Oh Oh Oh Oh Oh..Square Rulessssss.

2005-01-16T04:03:00.000-08:00

It's already 4am but I'm still pretty awake! I know I am supposed to sleep but I just felt like doing some online window shopping at Yahoo Auctions. I'm getting hooked! There are just so many things to view! LOL.

Oh ya, if you're looking at the title and wondering what it means, it's the chorus of an old retro song. I just got to know the lyrics today (thanks to Carine & Jessie). Yeah went clubbing at RAV after some un-fruitful shopping in town. *Sigh. I'm starting to panic; I have not got my new yr clothes! Okay back to RAV, I'm really glad I was able to let my hair down with my girls after a week of stress! But the bad thing about tonight was, it went blackout for 4 times! Music stopped suddenly when we were at the dancefloor and the DJ would repeat the song again when the electricity resumed..Quite terrible huh. -_-

One last thing before I go to bed, Life with straight teeth minus the braces is great! LOL. I feel so much more confident when I smile! And I don't have to worry about food getting stuck in btw the metals! =D

luo han..

2005-01-11T03:38:00.000-08:00

my pet luo han's dying. we've had it since the luo han craze started a couple of years ago. i've never been "close" to it since i wasn't really interested in fishes but it's really sad to see it struggling. it's been a few days since it was sick and my dad tried to save it by adding in some blue solution. it seemed to work a little at first but its condition deterioriated again. my parents planned to set it free next morning. i wonder whether it's a good or bad thing to do?

a lil' piece of good news!

2005-01-11T01:16:00.000-08:00

Since most of the editing is done for this blog, i shall post my non-official first post as i can't wait to share this piece of good news with everyone. by next morning at 10, i'll no longer wear the "tin grin"! YES! I'M REMOVING MY BRACES! Time flies, it's been with me for 1.5 years (since 13 June 2003 which was a Friday the 13th)!

Thinking back, (besides having to extract 8 tooth - but it's really worth it lah! :P),the process wasn't that bad after all, I didn't encounter any unbearable pain except some occasional soreness. However, watching my teeth aligned day by day was pretty interesting, I would stare into the mirror for hours observing the changes, and jumped in joy when my "vampire teeth" finally filled up the gap of the extracted tooth. LOL. Now, I am simply awaiting for 9am to arrive. I can't wait to see the dentist. I believe it'll be the best day since 2005 started. Heez. *Excited*

Oh yes if anyone reading this post ever had the intention to have ur teeth align, I urge you to go for it! It's not that scary and you'll never regret your decision. Do ask me for details ya? I'll be happy to help! :D

Do leave your comments or tag me ya. Share my joy! lol.